was feeling so vexed over nth for the past few weeks. really over nth. now, i have nth to think abt in regards to this matter until say she really calls me as promised. mixed feelings in my heart. i really want her to call me, but also not at the same time. i duno wats with me, trying to do things to bring myself so close and letting go. i feel like a loser.
really fed up with myself alrdy. lost my drive in work, lost my aim in life over such a trivial matter. so i am going to bring back the old me. i am going to be so career-driven, so motivated in sch and work and so into frens and family.
went to catch a movie with xd and colin. watched colic. wanted to catch a happy show but cb, they insisted they wan to watch horror.thai horrors are indeed catching up. quite scary. after movie, went for supper with xd at bencoolen. hai.. now i am back in my room alone thinking abt things again. argh!!!!!
enough of low value activities. i will try to deliver all policies by next week. try to contact all open cases too. i am going to have fun with frens and make more money to realise ~be a king in thailand~ trip. i need my focus and drive back to meet my goal in dec next year. WRX. haha. the tot of picking my frens and urrmtsss urrmtsss to school jus makes me so excited!
and lastly to u.... Je'taime. but this must end.