kester's call woke me up. he is on off today. poor boy is going to brunei for training on sat. so he came to my area, and i brought him to eat bak kut teh! very very nice. had our fill, then went to katong. i did my prayers, then kester and i chilled out for a while at the coffeeshop. it was our favourite hang out place during secondary school days. then we went to katong mall to meet colin and jason. then the two had aston's for lunch.
after that, kester went home while i accompanied jason and colin to cut their hair. then we went to pw to walk around. kr and mari joined us shortly. we were browsing thru some books in mph when we saw the recipes for diff cuisines. then colin came up with the idea of going to jason's place and make pasta for dinner.
went to cold storage to get our stuff then off we went to heng's place. took a while to prepare dinner. haha. we started eating only at around 11. the impromptu cooking of dinner was ok. jus that the paste didn't taste quite rite. but still ok overall.

chef at work

kr can go sell noodles. damn pro.

halfway there.

at last....

looks gross. but it really tasted ok. haha.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

jus back from bedok 85. was chilling out at the cheesecake with nr and ena, then went with ena for dinner at 85. yeah, ena is back! nice to see her again. i need to meet her more, to make up for the past few mths.
anyway, it was so hard trying get myself to start working again. these few days, called most of the open cases i have got but only managed to secure a few appts. if it was like when i jus started out, i wld be like so sad and disappointed with myself if i only got so little appts. but this time round, i found tt i was not really affected. shrugs. i duno wats wrong. why do i not care anymore?
haha. anyway, these few days for me was like, super relaxed and enjoy life can? watched a few movies, went clubbing, chilling out and more chilling out.
hm... several days passed and still no sign of her wanting me to be there. haha, guess it was only affection on my part all along. silly me. but nvm. i still have my frens, family, and uhmmtss uhmmtss next yr to look forward too. yeah, call it self-deception. but i dun care.

vendetda posted at 9:06 PM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

i jus checked my income summary... and u know wat? $1700 only!!! wtf?? i am slacking. money and production, will be my number one priority now.
$3000/mth by january. mark my words pple. i'll do it.

vendetda posted at 6:16 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

was feeling so vexed over nth for the past few weeks. really over nth. now, i have nth to think abt in regards to this matter until say she really calls me as promised. mixed feelings in my heart. i really want her to call me, but also not at the same time. i duno wats with me, trying to do things to bring myself so close and letting go. i feel like a loser.
really fed up with myself alrdy. lost my drive in work, lost my aim in life over such a trivial matter. so i am going to bring back the old me. i am going to be so career-driven, so motivated in sch and work and so into frens and family.
went to catch a movie with xd and colin. watched colic. wanted to catch a happy show but cb, they insisted they wan to watch horror.thai horrors are indeed catching up. quite scary. after movie, went for supper with xd at bencoolen. hai.. now i am back in my room alone thinking abt things again. argh!!!!!
enough of low value activities. i will try to deliver all policies by next week. try to contact all open cases too. i am going to have fun with frens and make more money to realise ~be a king in thailand~ trip. i need my focus and drive back to meet my goal in dec next year. WRX. haha. the tot of picking my frens and urrmtsss urrmtsss to school jus makes me so excited!
and lastly to u.... Je'taime. but this must end.

vendetda posted at 1:40 AM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

went to JB with adam and vinson ytd. went in at around noon. main reason why we were there was to deliver a bag to geraldine. haha. mission based. but we had our fun too. very chilled out trip, no rush, no itinerary and alot of time. so basically was jalan jalan, chilling out, eating, foot reflexology and smoking. real cheap ciggs they have. lucky msians. stayed over at crystal crown hotel. then sunday went to meet lisa and geraldine. i am too lazy to go into details. so let the pictures do the talking.
chilling out

before

after

crystal crown

foot massage

all of us.

very confused now.

vendetda posted at 11:13 PM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

so ashamed that i dun even have the courage to look for her alone. hm.. this is bad. i sense self-pity mode coming again. yeah, guess i really dun deserve her. hai.. sad sad sad. i must get well soon to become the ENTERTAINER for my friends again. so all my frens can be happy. make them all laugh.
anyway, jus got back from fisherman's village. was at BQ liquid before that. chilled out with vinson and adam. bad day at work again. everything jus sucks so badly for me rite now. can u come and save me? i need u.

vendetda posted at 3:16 AM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

last nite, i was still quite chilled abt the fact that she is leaving. i duno, maybe for gd, maybe she ll be back a mth or so. yeah, as usual, didn't slp last nite. thinking of the one and a half mths of frenship. haha, short rite. but still enough things to last me a whole nite. all the little things she do makes me happy, makes me excited, yeah makes me angry and sad too.
today, when i heard the news tt she had to go. i duno y but i teared. TEARED, not cry. there's a difference. is this love, is this liking, wat is this?! i am still at home now, trying to get more info on wat has happened to her. i am supposed to be working alrdy. my life is at a lost, i duno. adam says she is not worth it, i can tell too. but i can't help but fall deeper.
now i shall say something as a fren, like i always will be. hope u can come back after a mth. gd luck.

vendetda posted at 1:29 PM

lousy day!! pui pui!! let's start with not enough pple doing opening for roadshow in the morning. the few of us carried the stuffs. damn tiring. haven't even start work, perspired like hell. then not bringing in any cases the whole day. fark. i am damn lousy. i must buck up! then a lot of other stupid things which affected me so badly, and i dun wish to talk abt. so farked up day for me. hope it was a gd one for my frens.
jus wan to wish gd luck to yq, gd luck to lisa, aiya, gd luck to everyone. hope tmr will be a good day!

vendetda posted at 2:08 AM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

yeah guys, FSCHC tmr. study hard!! i seriously need to relax after tmr. yeps, to destress. check out this clip....
this is one farking wicked shuffle!!!



i say clubbing on wed!!!

vendetda posted at 4:01 AM

Sunday, November 05, 2006

just got back from Fisherman's Village. had a few drinks with adam while looking at the sea. all peaceful. and it is officially adam's birthday now!! 23rd[geraldine, pls check ur facts] bday! happy birthday adam!! we went to town after FSA on friday, had sushi for lunch. did our mini celebration for adam there.


adam!!!

still have WPS and FSCHS to go. boooo~ dun have mood to study alrdy. sian.... can't wait for exams to be over. then can party party!!
i guess i can only be ur fren. i am nice guy, nice fren. yeah, everyone likes to be my fren, including u. fren only.. but i feel that i am losing u even as a fren. u dun look for me anymore. u dun tell me u are safely at home alrdy anymore. i really miss u. i jus wan to see u more, wan to be the one who can be there when u need someone. be my fren, i jus wan to see u.

vendetda posted at 3:49 AM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

only 5 and a half hrs to FSI.. ARGH!!!~!~! so scary. i haven't studied enough and i am in a state where i feel, no more info can go into my head anymore. D.E.A.D. anyway, pple wish me luck. $1200 and three mths of my life if i dun pass tmr. thats farking ex. once again, give me all ur luck!!! anyway, still wanna wish the whole BDEFT 5th intake good luck and all get good results!!
why haven't u been calling? i wan to ask and i wan to stay away too. cos i know i wun be the one. i feel i need u when i am sad, happy, stressed, having a headache, get my pay, alone in my room, eating, working, studying, writing stupid notes abt my feelings for u and crushing them.... i think of u all the time.

vendetda posted at 4:33 AM